black forest & coffee

untuk kau dan hujan.

Thu, 20 Dec 2012 12:19:02 +0700

aku terbangun dari tidur pagi. pintu kamar tertutup dan lamat-lamat terdengar langkah kakimu beralas sandal selop. Mendengar batuk kecilmu yang khas dan aku tergerak.

memanggil-manggil namamu.

kau terbatuk lagi. kecil.

aku mengangkat tubuh sedikit, memanggil lagi.

tak ada sahutan.

kukira kau pulang karena sakit atau apa, tapi mengapa tak membuka pintu dan memperhatikan tidurku?

ah, ternyata hanya halusinasiku saja.
terlanjur rindu jadinya, padahal kita bertemu setiap hari.
aku bangun dan menatap keluar jendela. mendung. kuperhatikan piring dan sendok kotor bekas selai coklat sisa sarapan kita pagi ini. aku belum mencuci semua piring kotornya.

aku duduk disudut sofa baru dan menghirup wangi udara yang lembab. wangi kesukaanku setiap langit menjadi gelap.
jujur saja, aku berharap hari ini akan hujan. aku selalu suka hujan. padahal mungkin seharusnya tidak.

orang selalu suka dengan langit yang cerah, atau sore yang jingga. ada beberapa orang yang tergila-gila dengan malam dan bintangnya. tapi aku tetap memilih hujan. mungkin karena teduh yang ia hantarkan dan hawa panas yang aku benci, bisa ia singkirkan.
asal kau tahu, panas terik mendatangkan semut-semut kecil yang kelaparan mencari makanan di dapurku.
oh ya, dan seolah, dengan melihat setiap bulir airnya yang jatuh cepat, aku seperti melihat film kehidupan dan luapan emosiku sendiri. beruntung bila kau punya jendela besar tanpa teralis, apalagi di kamarmu sendiri yang menghadap keluar. ketika hujan, air akan menganak sungai di sana.

suatu saat aku akan punya jendela seperti itu.

kaupun suka hujan. romantis katamu, dan aku tertawa. meskipun aku setuju, tetap saja hujan lebih dari itu. ia membawa emosiku mereda, dan menyingkap segala bentuk luapan makna dari jiwaku. merenung, kata orang-orang.

dan kabar gembira itu memang datang. katamu, berita siang bilang hari ini akan hujan ringan. kau berharap semoga karenanya aku akan merasa nyaman, setidaknya hanya untuk hari ini saja.

mungkin kau tahu aku sangat mengharapkan hujan sampai menyebutkannya dalam doa dua hari terakhir.

hanya hujan ringan, tapi tak apalah jawabku. sudah mendung di sini dan aku ingin kau cepat pulang.

kau pasti tersenyum di sana, masih jam sepuluh dan aku sudah rindu.

kau mungkin tak mengerti. tapi hari-hari awal bersamamu ada di sela hujan yang deras:

kita tak bertemu dalam rentang waktu yang lama. tapi kau selalu menemaniku dalam hujan. ketika aku menunda pulang hingga larut karena hujan, bahkan ketika aku tak bisa pulang karena banjir di musim penghujan. semuanya karena hujan. dan kamu selalu ada mendengar keluhku akan hujan.

padahal tidak begitu, sungguh. aku begitu mencintainya karena dialah yang memberiku alasan untuk bermanja-manja padamu. membaca pesan darimu walau hanya satu spasi saja.

aku senang hari ini. udara lembab masih tersisa dari hujan rintik yang terhenti. masih mendung dan hari ini aku kangen sekali. sampai menangis seperti hujan siang tadi.

-Jakarta, 11 April 2011 2:08 PM- untuk kau dan hujan

Hello..there!

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 16:46:36 +0700

Well, hello..again to my blog! It’s been more than a year since the last time i write or post something on you. Guess what? i’ve become a mother of a baby boy! He’s 9 months old now, and thanks God he was really calm and smart cutie pie. Here he is:

Well..just wanna start a new page here..fyi i just started my own bussines last April. It’s Nouva Craft~yes,it’s was my handmade fabric flower corsage and accessories! I started to introduce my first collection on facebook and it really had good responds! Makes me excited to create the next collection. You can see my personal touch on each and every design..just like this:

You can see the other collection at my facebook fan page. Okay then, have a nice Tuesday! Oh ya, it’s 4th September now, so Happy World Hijab Day to all my moslemah friend!:D

i wish i had this case..

Sat, 25 Aug 2012 14:03:10 +0700

i wish i had this case..

Secret Garden! How i adore it.. wallacegardens: Knitted nature...

Sun, 27 Nov 2011 17:11:26 +0700

Secret Garden! How i adore it..

wallacegardens:

Knitted nature walk. Instead of a dollhouse….a secret garden. From the book by Jan Messent, Knitted Gardens.

rainboworder: Felt flower brooches in rainbow order

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 08:47:54 +0700

rainboworder:

Felt flower brooches in rainbow order

Que Sera Sera

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 07:44:00 +0700

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother what will I be
Will I be pretty? will I be rich?
Here’s what she said to me:

Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be will be
The future’s not ours to see
Que Sera Sera
What will be will be

When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows day after day?
Here’s what my sweetheart said:

Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be will be
The future’s not ours to see
Que Sera Sera
What will be will be

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother what will I be
Will I be handsome? will I be rich?
I tell them tenderly

Que Sera Sera
Whatever will be will be
The future’s not ours to see
Que Sera Sera
What will be will be
Que Sera Sera

For my beloved husband...

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 13:53:00 +0700

*Photos of Memory Lane b’day card for my beloved husband on his birthday, 20st July. I really love the words, especially the caricature since i fond of cats. I had bought this card since my last year of junior high school *giggling*. Keep it on the sidelines of textbooks and papers for years, I’ve been waiting to give it on my husband-to-be birthday.

It’s a so special card..and that means you’re so much more special to me..
Rifqa Agung Wicaksono :)

lovely yellow

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 13:20:26 +0700

lovely yellow

Photo

Sat, 30 Apr 2011 18:18:43 +0700

hai...ini siapa ya?
do i know u?

Mon, 04 Apr 2011 12:50:25 +0700

ini nopee ariiiieefff..iihhhh…sok ngartis deh kamyuuuu..ahahaha

blooming at a gloomy day

Wed, 30 Mar 2011 08:50:00 +0700

It’s a gloomy day in my place..but not for my fabric flowers..they’re blooming. Forever.

*jumping, jumping*

Here’s my next project at home, I’ve made a Romantic-Vintage themed necklace (with lace and crochet flower of course!) and I hope you like it too.

Have a nice gloomy day..!

feminine and cold

Wed, 23 Mar 2011 13:11:00 +0700

Like I had list before, I’ve made some fabric corsage as one of my activities at home. Actually, this is what I like most to design so far. I found this idea when I’m still working for a company. Sit behind the computer whole day long really makes my sense of art fade. So, I searched some great stuff in Etsy.com, and I found this statement accessories at Rosy Posy Design, they mixed a lot of different fabrics into one corsage, and they can make some different corsage with one theme. I tried some trial and keep using a moodboard to create a fix palettes into the corsage.Mix the fabric with buttons, stones, or beads. Sometimes I use recycled fabric with suede or faux leather. I really enjoy it!

more than full-time housewife

Wed, 23 Mar 2011 12:50:00 +0700

It’s in the end of March, and I’ve just found out some new exciting activity to do at home. At first months as a housewife, I just can’t imagine what I can do at home rather than surfing in the internet or take a nap after doing my daily tasks; you know, cleaning the house, wash those dirty clothes, prepare the meals, and so on.

I don’t have any child yet, and I used to get busy with myself some years ago as a design college student and a textile designer. I’m having a new fact that I must get used to this new title. I’ve figure it out after my husband gave some advice when I started to grumble of ‘nothing-to-do’ at home and living a monotone life. He’s like, “What are you grumble at? Look at yourself! You’re a designer and a housewife. Those facts should make you confused to choose what you’re going to do next instead of what you’re gonna do?!”

Then I realized what I’ve been dreaming of while I’m still working as a textile designer for a company. I just want to be a free designer, practice what I’ve learned from the college for more. No need to blow my budget for many great stuff I can design and create myself. I’ve got it now. What’s next then?

I’m listing.

I’ve list number of things I can do at home while waiting for my husband arrived from his work. And you know what? I can’t stop to list. But then I decided to do my first list before I can start to make a new list. These are my things to do at home now (just in case you’re want to pick some idea too) :

What I can do at home:

Make a fabric accessories
Make a moodboard
Design a dress
Search for health recipes
Search for home décor ideas
Read a book
Try to make a cake
Post a new design on my blog
Scrap booking
Mix and match clothes. (I’ve bought some old magazine like InStyle to get some ideas)
Recycle old clothes
Search some easy pattern to sew

See? I can do anything now. Since I’m a detail person, I can do one thing for a long time. For example, when I make a new fabric corsage, I can spend my brunch time until the afternoon comes. It does just remain a half hour before my husband arrived sometimes. And the most exciting thing is, I have someone that would love to comment, and appreciate my creation anytime I ask him. :)

first draw of kitty and mouse :)

Fri, 31 Dec 2010 00:00:00 +0700

first draw of kitty and mouse :)

tepatnya hari sabtu malam yang lalu saya mendapat satu kejutan...

Thu, 25 Nov 2010 00:00:00 +0700

tepatnya hari sabtu malam yang lalu saya mendapat satu kejutan dari pacar a.k.a suami tercinta,
satu tangkai mawar merah ketika kami sedang makan malam sederhana di satu cafe lesehan daerah Tubagus.
that’s so sweet and suprised me, indeed.
bukan karena saya ngga pernah menerima mawar sebelumnya, tapi karena ini adalah bunga pertama pemberian kang Rio =)

malam itu saya jadi teringat dengan satu dari sekian banyak wish list yang saya punya,
saya bilang:
“kalo taun ini dikasih satu tangkai mawar, taun depan satu buket, berarti taun depan dapet satu kebun?!” *ngelunjak*
suami saya hanya tertawa dan mengiyakan dengan bercanda.
saya hanya berdoa semoga pada malam itu ada banyak malaikat mengamini kalimat saya. hehe..

begitulah,
satu dari sekian banyak wish list saya adalah memiliki sebuah kebun mawar, lengkap dengan archway di pintunya.
mungkin karena saya begitu jatuh cinta dengan film “The Secret Garden” dari semenjak saya SD, jadi saya ingin sekali punya satu kebun bunga yang rimbun, wangi dan berwarna-warni.
Terlebih karena saya juga punya wish list untuk mendekorasi rumah saya dengan tema country, jadi kebun mawar bakal jadi pelengkap yang sempurna..

jangan tanya apakah saya mampu mengurus kebunnya atau nggak, karena saya juga masih belum tau. hehe..selama ini saya jarang berkebun bukan karena saya malas kotor-kotoran, tapi karena musuh terbesar saya adalah cacing..segala macam cacing, termasuk cacing tanah yang muncul ketika berkebun. heheu..(-,-‘)
tapi, setidaknya masih ada orang yang punya profesi sebagai tukang kebun untuk membantu merawat kebun saya nantinya kan..? =p

well, sometimes we just have to dare to dream..hopefully one day i will have my own rose garden with white rose archway in front of it.
Amiin..=)

Pulang Mudik

Thu, 23 Sep 2010 00:00:00 +0700

Ibu A: Neng, kemaren lebaran mudik kemana?
Saya: Ke Cirebon, Bu..*senyum manis
Ibu A: Wah, Cirebon yah, Ibu kepengen banget empal gentong..!"
Ibu B: Cirebon panas yah? deket laut sih..**ikutan nimbrung
Saya: Iya, Bu..panas banget!
Ibu B: Pantesan kamu item.
Saya: Hiks.*senyum pahit

Would love to arrange my books on color scheme like this. I...

Mon, 06 Sep 2010 00:00:00 +0700

Would love to arrange my books on color scheme like this.

I will, when i have my own library :)

when we’ll be together?

Sat, 21 Aug 2010 00:00:00 +0700

when we’ll be together?

yeah, i admit it.

Wed, 18 Aug 2010 00:00:00 +0700

yeah, i admit it.

Stunning. This softly lit Honeycomb table lamp is made of silk...

Sat, 31 Jul 2010 00:00:00 +0700

Stunning. This softly lit Honeycomb table lamp is made of silk worm cocoon.

I love organic. Love nature. It triggers me a lot. Leads to other stunning idea.

black forest & coffee

untuk kau dan hujan.

Hello..there!

i wish i had this case..

Secret Garden! How i adore it.. wallacegardens: Knitted nature...

rainboworder: Felt flower brooches in rainbow order

Que Sera Sera

For my beloved husband...

lovely yellow

Photo

hai...ini siapa ya? do i know u?

blooming at a gloomy day

feminine and cold

more than full-time housewife

first draw of kitty and mouse :)

tepatnya hari sabtu malam yang lalu saya mendapat satu kejutan...

Pulang Mudik

Would love to arrange my books on color scheme like this. I...

when we’ll be together?

yeah, i admit it.

Stunning. This softly lit Honeycomb table lamp is made of silk...

hai...ini siapa ya?
do i know u?